What have I done?

So my nephew has always had a strange fascination with pedicured and painted toenails for some reason. And while I always stick with my usual pink, nude, maroon, brown shades he’s been asking me to paint them blue. He has for a while now, a year maybe. So today I decided to be adventurous and go for a blue. I picked what looked like a deep, dark blue on the sample. It had a purplish tinge. However after the 2nd coat it’s turned out, in your face bright blue. And now as I look down at my feet all I can think about is ūüėĪ What have I done? I suppose I’ll get used to it. And I can remove the colour in a couple of days. But for now, it’s getting used to a colour outside my comfort zone. Picture below for your reference.

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Labels

I was shopping on-line when I realised the ugliness of society today. We love to put “labels” on everything. While superficial these groupings likely work their way into our subconscious affecting we think, feel and behave. It’s terrible. Breakfast cereal. The whole cereal section was labelled breakfast cereal. What has the world come to? Why do large corporations dictate when we eat cereal (yes, okay, so I was on-line grocery shopping). I will have cereal for dinner if I want to. And I have in the past. I have had days where I had cereal for all meals in a day. That’s why I used to stock up on 2-3 types of cereal when I was living the uni student life. It’s quick, no cooking, delicious and nutritious. Ain’t no label going to dictate how I live my life.

Brain block

I had so many ideas that I had to get out on a blog post while on the way here but now I can’t think of anything it sucks. Life is going pretty okay. I am getting used to the loneliness.¬†It’s not that bad. Well not that bad as long as I have the internet. Though I think nowadays I will be okay without it too.

I have Googled and researched my Japan trip. I found places to visit that include a Ninja Temple and a Hedgehog Cafe. Flights booked, hotels tentatively reserved, things to do 75-80% planned, money budgeted. All that is left for me is to get travel insurance and actually go. There are more than 6 months to the trip though. Seems like a very long way to go to October. But I can’t wait. Super excited yet part of me is nervous, I will be pretty much travelling alone in a country where I ¬†don’t speak the language. By the way If anyone has any suggestions for things to do in Hokkaido, especially around Sapporo, please do let me know. I have 1 more day there with not much plans. And if anyone will be travelling to Japan in late October and wants to hang out please do let me know too :D.

In other news, life is pretty much the same, except I am a fat cow because I have been having trouble waking up for my morning exercise sessions. I woke up this morning though, hopefully I am sustain this. Maybe I should try the 21 day thingy. You know, do something 21 days straight so it becomes a habit. Hmm, 21 days of exercise first thing in the morning and oats for breakfast. Let’s do this. Only 20 more days to go.

Signs you are becoming an old person

So I haven’t blogged for a while. I might be losing my mo-jo. I read my earlier posts and they were some funny shit. Lately my posts are just depressing. And this one is about how I am becoming an older person. Here goes.

Signs you are a single person no longer in your early 2os:

  • The thought of not being in bed by 11pm at night scares you. When you get a dinner invite you need to do the maths in your head to make sure you are in bed in order to get your 8 hours.
  • Your limit for alcohol is 1 standard drink. Okay 2 max. Don’t even think about the 3rd one.
  • Your idea of sleeping in¬†is sleeping till 8am. After that you can try as much as you want but you’ll likely end up tossing and turning in bed for an hour contemplating life.
  • Catching up with your friends (if you are single), entails listening to tales of marriage, in-laws and babies, even though you have no way to relate to them, so you sit there thinking of all the ways to kill yourself with the fork on the table. Maybe that 3rd drink isn’t such a bad idea.
  • The bulk of your favourite songs were released around 10 or more years ago.
  • You seriously contemplate (or start eating) oats as¬†your breakfast cause they are better for your health. Doesn’t matter that they taste like wet sawdust.

There is a silver lining though, the biggest sign that you are getting older is the best, you stop giving a shit. Seriously, you stop worrying about what other think and start concentrating on you and the people that matter.

Like ripping a plaster off

Plaster, that’s what we call what is normally known as Band-aids. I had a “fuck it” moment yesterday where I was letting all my over thinking get to me. Thinking¬†about life in general and travel plans for the year. I have been in a state of confusion of what I want to do and what I can afford to do and it had been stressing me out. In the end, I figured oh hell, I got to do something, so I booked flights to Japan. Yup, I am going to Japan.

Looking at Facebook & Instagram, I feel like the whole world is in Japan now. Feels a bit clich√© going there now but everyone’s experience will be different. Plus will be my first solo or at least semi-solo trip. Does it freak me out having to travel alone in a country where I don’t speak the language? Yes it does. Very much actually. But getting out of your comfort zone, that’s what life is all about right?

I can’t let me crazy doomsday mind stop me from living life and pursuing passions, i.e. travelling. Even if life doesn’t feel all “together”, I shouldn’t stop moving forward. I got to throw myself into things I want to do or explore while having faith that everything will work out. “Enjoy the journey”, instead of stressing over it and focussing on the “destination”. I think I am finally getting the concept of that.

Patience and passions. Having patience while throwing yourself into your passions. That’s a pretty good way to live life. I got to start listening and applying my own mumbo jumbo to my life :D.

 

Starry-eyed

I think a lot of people that live in non-cloudy, non-city parts of the world often take the night sky for granted. I thought of that because today I looked up and the night sky was clearer than usual. I can see the twinkling of 5-6 specs in the distance.

Makes me really miss Australia, where I could look up and see the dark skyline filled with shinny stars. I loved looking at that. More than your average person. It was just so beautiful, gave me a sense of awe, peace and perspective at the same time.

I have pretty much resigned to fate that I am stuck here alone in this hot cloudy mess for life. But for all of you out there lucky enough to have clear, crisp night skies, remember to look up tonight. Take a few minutes to admire the beauty of what lies beyond our tiny planet.

Batman vs Superman

Watched the movie last night. It was alright. If you are not sure whether to watch it or not, well, in my opinion, don’t worry if you miss it.

I love Batman, the character in general. Have loved the character since I was a kid. He’s the ultimate introvert. Recluse, doesn’t take shit from anyone, badass yet altruistic. And he has no super powers. He’s the dream of the ultimate human. Well him and Beyonce, the 2 ultimate humans.

Okay so back to the movie, (spoiler alert!) it just just to long a draggy with a under developed plot and bad screenwriting. I mean, come on, we all knew that Batman vs Superman was going to end with them working together. I think there should have been more done in that direction than probably the first half of the movie which was redundant.

And it didn’t have that “oomph” factor. You know that¬†thing you feel when you watch the¬†2nd X-men movie and they are in the president’s office or in the Dark Knight Returns when Batman returns to stop the guys that stormed the stock market. You know that thing, that feeling. It just wasn’t there.

And Ben Affleck, he doesn’t work as Batman. He just doesn’t sorry. And they made him look like half robot by the end of the movie. No just no. They have failed the concept of Batman. Well superman dies in the end so that’s a plus.

Oh the best part of the movie? At the end of it when were we waiting for the lifts, one at the end opened, we rushed to it and it was closing. I went and stopped the closing doors but putting my arms out. Had my own Superman moment. Not all superheroes wear capes you know.

Verted

There is no such things as an extroverted introvert or introverted extrovert or the new term “ambi-vert”. If you identify with these you are an extrovert. Like for example the author of this article. He’s an extrovert that’s either in denial or trying to feel special by calling himself an extroverted introvert.

Introversion/extroversion is a single continuum. I am going Jung-ian here. There maybe other interpretations of the concept but I am going with the person that started in all, Carl Jung. Back to my point,¬†you either fall on the side of introvert or extrovert. There’s no intersection, it’s not a bloody Venn diagram. Kind of like the pH scale. You are either an acid or akali/base. You can’t be an alkaline acid or vice versa. It just doesn’t make sense.

You might argue, “But Anita, the pH scale has water, that’s neutral, in the middle. So¬†what about ambiverts?”. No, just no. Water, pH 7, is neutral. Key word, NEUTRAL. Ambiverts are said to have traits of of introversion and extroversion. So it would be akin to a¬†cocktail of acid plus alkali, not a neutral substance. There’s no place for Ambiverts on that scale. I repeat, the concept of ambiverts doesn’t make sense.

If only we could carry around little pieces of paper and do a litmus test on people.

Keeping it real – Ellen

Saw the following Ellen video clip and just when you think you can’t love her more she does that. Keeping it real with little kids.

And about the presidential race, she¬†mentioned that if you are following the news on it then, you know “that this is America’s farewell season”. Funniest thing about the whole thing anyone has said. And I watch The Daily Show.

Got to love her. Along with Beyonce and Google, she is one of the best things the US has given the world.

Attack of the brain

Sometimes I wonder if I don’t work hard enough. I wonder what more I can do to improve my quality of life. And then I scrutinise every aspect of everything and see what I can do better. Implement changes, but then it all ends up coming to the same.

I got confirmed at work today. Not sure if that term makes sense with anyone that doesn’t work here but I now officially have a permanent job. I got pretty good feedback too. Yet here I am at night thinking of how I need to be a better human. Hormones, I blame hormones. Damn PMS, go away.