Buzzfeed – How to be Attractive to Men

I found the most helpful beauty/dating article on the internet. It by buzzfeed and I had to share. Click here for the link.

They also have this quiz where the results were weirdly accurate. Link to that is here.

Sick long weekend

I have been home sick since Thursday. I basically got a really high fever which the doctors can’t properly diagnose without more tests. Anyways my point it, I am sure all of you have see this thingy below right?

Anyway on Thursday, I was all like, I am going to get over not having someone to fuss over me by fussing over myself. Cause I am all self-sufficient and shit. But then when you are sick, you realise you don’t really have the energy to do it. And now I am sitting here wishing Ben & Jerry’s delivers. I really want ice cream.

Black cat

So I was out for a jog. Not sure if I was supposed to, I am sick, doctor said it’s likely Rhinitis not the common cold cause I have had it for about 2 week now. Not sure what Rhinitis is. But the all those runner HFs (health freaks – you need to know that abbreviation if we’re going to be friends :p), normally run off a cold/sickness right?

Anyway, as I was jogging (at night), I hit a path that was dimly lit. Very dimly lit. And with sweat in my eyes and wearing an old pair of glasses that aren’t the clearest, I made out a figure in the distance on the path. It looked like a cat, a black cat. Not your house variety, more like a panther. And for a second, though logically I knew there’s no way that would be a wild animal, I thought there was a large wild feline in my neighborhood. Turns out it was just a usual HF doing some strength training and had his body contorted in a funny position. Why in the mild of a dark path, I don’t know. As I got nearer, he moved to doing side planks, effortlessly. And there I was huffing and puffing past him. I can barely hold or regular plank for 30 secs, I struggle to lift my ass up in side planks.

To be honest, if it ever came down to it, between a large wild black panther and one of those #runningislife #cleaneating pretentious hipsters, I think I’ll take my chances with the panther.

Fat girl problems

So I went shopping for jogging shoes/joggers/trainers, whatever you call them. And these days there are so many bloody choices, it’s confusing, I needed help. I asked store assistants for help. But I didn’t get any! I am not sure if it’s because I look like I wasn’t going to buy anything or if it’s the fatness that kept the assistants away but it was so annoying. Store after store, no one bothered with me. Even when I asked. Just ridiculous. I finally managed to find a store assistant that was willing to help and managed to get a pair but today is just a reminder of the troubles with being fat.

The other thing that annoys me is that sizes gym clothes rarely so up to large sizes. Most items are small or medium. Like hello, what are fat people supposed to wear when the exercise? Tents? My dress size is a UK 16/18, which is like a US 12/14. I don’t think that’s a very uncommon size, why do things only go up to a UK 10 or 12?

Argh.

Gods

You know the song You’re a God by Vertical Horizon? If you don’t I’ve added the clip below. The weird music video doesn’t do the song justice.

Anyway, I was listening to the song and while the lyrics allude to the singer singing about a romantic relationship, I realise it can be applied to so many people around. Doesn’t it feel like it sometimes, in a world filled with superiority complexes and self adulation, that you’re walking around a world of Gods?

And among these Gods, there’s me. And incredibly flawed human with good intentions. A mere mortal, navigating life, at times failing and having to pick herself up, and hoping to connect with other fellow humans. It’s intimidating, this world of Gods.

Introvert’s lonesome conundrum

It’s an interesting conundrum. Being very introverted and lonely. As I have said time and again in my posts, I know that I need to go make new friends. And I genuinely want to do that, go out and connect with people. Like  seriously form strong connections/friendships. But the in order to do that, I need to go out and hang out with people. People that I don’t know. Which I truly do not enjoy. Socialising face to face with groups of people, I am bad that. I live too much in my own head that I am socially awkward around people. Plus I find it so draining. Trust me, I have tried, I go for networking events with my various alumnis, I try to be involved with friends social engagements, etc. I even tried talking to people when travelling alone.

Basically I don’t want to feel lonely but I like being left alone. So how do you make new friends when you really don’t like being around strangers? Anyone else have this problem?

Australian Open 2017

The Australian open singles finals this year have been amazing. Yesterday the Williams sisters battled it out and today it’s Roger Federer against Rafael Nadal. If you have ever discussed tennis with me you know that I always back Serena Williams and Roger Federer. Don’t get me wrong, I love Venus Williams and Rafa too. With Venus yesterday, it was like a comeback/underdog kind of story yesterday hence I understand the out pouring of support for her. But I can’t not, not support Serena. She’s a real sporting powerhouse. Just like Roger Federer. Remember when they were paired up for an exhibition match? Again, I do love Rafael Nadal as well but there’s no one like Roger Federer.

Sickie

What’s it about being sick that makes you feel extra alone and unwanted. It sucks I had the house to myself this morning, something that I normally enjoy, but today I couldn’t concentrate on anything. At least my best friend was there for me, Netflix. Managed to watch The Big Short despite needing to use my brain to focus. To be honest, I am feeling much better than I was yesterday, except I have this metallic taste in my mouth, I am guessing from the medication. And my nose. It won’t stop. Sick plus the misleading little light on my phone on weekends. You know that notification light, I have written about it before. I see it blinking, get all excited only to realise one of my apps needs to be updated or some brand sent me a sale/promo sms. Sick, sad, lonely. That’s the theme of my weekend.

Help

Do you ever try and help someone and have it back fire on you? I feel like it happens to me quite a bit. Like the other day, I was walking around in the shopping centre near me house. This lady approached me asking if I knew where the money changer was. I decided to be nice and walk her there. It was closed, and that woman got annoyed at me. At ME! It makes no sense.

That’s just one example but I feel like it’s happening increasingly. It’s so hard to human these days.